Sunday, April 29, 2007

dream last night

I had a pretty elaborate dream last night, but I remember only one scene from it. It was very realistic and very disturbing to me. In this scene my mother told me: "You were so nice as a child, there were never any problems with you, but look at yourself now. What happened with you? You are not a person I knew."
I feel disturbed by it, because I know it is true. I am not as nice and easy-going as I used to be. That makes me sad. But on the other hand I also know that it is healthier for me to be the way that I am now, so I should just forget about this dream (= my internal voice) and move on.