very hard not to listen to sad songs, but they still play in my head.
to do a lot of sports, but my body is too weak and endorphins do not kick in.
to see friends and be happy with their happiness, but at the end of the day the charm wears off.
not to look like a bitten puppy and smile back at people. (It's one of the life's most difficult roles, to have a smile on your face when your heart is breaking apart.)
to come up with a better plan for survival, but so far I did not manage to come up with anything that would work.
to find sense in life, but I do not think anybody knows it...