Last week I broke up with Jochen. As much as it hurts me to know that he is hurt, from my private, egoistic point of view, it was the best decision that I could have made. In the end we should not be in the relationship with other people for them, but for ourselves. I guess. I hope.
I also wonder if I am not of that kind of people who should be alone, because I feel strangely happy to be alone. It does not scare me at all that I will not find anybody who will fit with me better than Jochen, and moreover I am kind of happy to be finally alone, free. And I am looking forward to what the life will bring.